I thought about not watching IPYTM, I really did, I read some spoilers, I knew I was gonna be hurt. I loved both characters and understood Teh’s pains so I was asking myself - what would make him do that?

Curiosity won and I watched it. I wasn’t expecting much, but it blew my mind. Not only because of the story (honestly I would have done so many things differently), but because of the characters' changes, what had happened to them? In the first ep Oh was different and scared while Teh was too optimistic... They were vibrating different frequencies from the start, for the first time I feared that would be their end. And it almost was. I kept watching thirsty for reasons for that damn thing.

IPYTM disturbed me, it was the opposite of the good feelings of love and nostalgia I had felt before, it was uncomfortable, distressing, sad. I wanted to punch Teh, I don’t know how many times, punch his naivety, his ego, his lack of consideration for Oh (especially when he decides to transfer and the homophobic audition), his blindness, then I remembered life is like this. You fall out of love and in love in the same relationship, you admire ppl and think that is love, you can’t control your feelings, you love what they can give you, you love an idea, you idealize your future, you get lost, you seek perfection and you forget perfection does not exist.

Although I find cute/happy love stories great, I also understand ppl make mistakes and stupid things. Clearly, Teh did not think he would lose Oh, then he did. Also clearly, they did not communicate well, nor Oh nor Teh... For a moment I was rooting for them to break up, shaken, hating Teh. When I saw how his perfect life was actually meaningless I was content, when he deleted their photos I said “well deserved”, but I lost everything with his final project play… And I lost all my arguments when they were finally together on screen. Can you see a world where those 2 are next to each other and don’t touch? I can’t!

Oh-Aew did not forget Teh, he became a silent fan, a working grown-up, he evolved so much and he was so brave all the time. How I wish I could have seen his previous resolutions, to have the tattoo done, to dye his hair red, and then to go back to his dark colors in their break-up. His words for Teh “I can’t give what you want" "you're gonna leave anyway" or the idea that Teh should’ve fought for him really pierced my heart, he loves Teh so much it hurts. In their reunion he was so cool, that scene when he says goodbye is so beautiful, but was he fully happy? Bas the wise comes to tell him to follow his heart, so maybe he wasn’t? The fact that he was still single and didn’t even look at Q might’ve meant he was just fine by himself, but the magazines hint at lingering love for Teh, not only that, but the camera showing the magazine was there together with his new photos. I just love Oh-Aew. For me this is Oh’s love story, he made the final call and he really deserves the moon.

In the end of ep4 I was skeptical, like, how were they going to make it work and save Teh’s ass? That also kept me going through the sadness, I felt physical pain. The final ep was brilliant. Teh’s play showed me he was really trying, maybe too late? Maybe too little? Yes, but there he was finally doing something! I liked the end, the parallels and the subtlety in their interactions were diminished in IPYTM, you did not see much of the blue x red. I will always associate Oh's love to the red colour. In the final scene, however, although Oh wasn't wearing anything super red and a black suit, his hair, which was darker when he reunited with Teh, was now faintly red in coordination to the hibiscus in the background, simply majestic. And there were white flowers not a sunflower, because maybe we've reached a point where Teh is not Oh’s sun anymore, or where Oh is not needy anymore and they can restart anew? Maybe now they can walk even, side by side? Nothing here is unintentional. Oh wants to be together, to try, to know the answer, to see if the future with Teh will be better. Relationships are choices and prayers of a happier future, of the happiest future possible. When Teh posts their pic and shows his love to everyone, despite his agency views, I know some ppl didn't like that, but I did, not bc of the post per se (we know how selfish Teh is, and honestly I don't think that is smth he can turn off 100%), but bc of the pic + message, showing off their love in a proposal lol. Ah, and Oh's face in the pic is priceless, maybe now they will face it together? Or not? I don't know, I can only pray together with them.

Sadly, the magical interactions, the silence, the touch and Oh + Teh screen time were so reduced in IPYTM that I feel like crying. There were still some interesting parallels, the blue x red tie, the doubt x the assertiveness, but it was like the magic had worn off, and I also think that was intentional. Real life is here, the struggles. Opposite to Phuket, we have the city and its hardness. I was not satisfied, sometimes I feel like I am, but I don't know. No back scratching, no body dancing, a love making scene with Jai’s interference, ugh!!!! At least they gave us beautiful insights on their 1st and the aquarium scene, another great parallel to their 1st kiss underwater. The play when Teh was working backstage, Teh’s final project play, the flower hitting scene and the end when they came full circle were also carefully and beautifully made.

Again so many feelings I can’t ignore and once more a superb production!!!

All the feelings these series caused in me are indiscribable. Microcosms. Love.

I'm glad I watched it, plus the soundtrack is amazing, a lot more of PP filled my heart <3 and coming of age with the most perfect clip ever almost killed me.

ps. a lot of people say Oh deserves better or that Teh ruined their beautiful love story, but I'd say real happiness and blessing is to be able to follow your heart's desires, like Oh did. They get back together in the end exactly because of their beautiful love story!