"i don't like men....i just like this one guy"
"i only have these special feelings for him"
"i'm not like them...maybe i am like them"
"he's a man - i'm a man"

i'll stop there and just say...stop doing this in BL's, PLEASE! it is some of the most annoying subject matter i've ever sat and watched. this is not reality and never will be. trying to convince me to buy into the premise that a guy is a gay/bi without them admitting they're bi/gay, but having this confess to one guy, but still proclaiming to love women, is just a headache in itself...minus the other clusterfuckery going on.

for this shit-show of a series...was it horrible? yes! could i have done without the nonsense at the end of episode 9 and all of episode 10? abso-fuckn-lutely. the homophobic father...typical and annoying. if you're going to make a BL series centered around gay males or self-discovery (coming out) don't make it about halfway being bi or almost being gay. Chon in episode 10 drove me up with walls not accepting a damn apology. if i were Ton, i would have left and said deuces. if anyone thinks i'm about to get on my knees in the hot sun - sweating bullets, while being rejected by a halfway cute guy laying in his bed with the a/c on...gotta be kidding me. never in this lifetime. however, after sitting in the sun and i guess sleeping on the ground...sending notes through the window...having my notes thrown in the trash and dumped on the ground....having water thrown on me while i sit outside sweating, by the person i want to accept my apology and fix the relationship...Chon still says no...but removing my shirt and giving a story about a tattoo does the trick and i'm home free and my relationship is restored. good fckn night, folks. oh but Ton's body was nice af....to me.

aside from that - this was a disaster - DEE ZAS-TER!