I don't usually write reviews but here I go cause I need to express what I just watched. it's deeply unsettling, every part of it is. This movie felt like experiencing some kind of nightmare which I somehow really liked. I was deeply involved and watching the chaos unfold in front of my eyes was an experience that I can't describe properly.

This movie isn't for everyone that's for sure:
- it's violent, but violent in such an overbearing way that it feels almost normal. The actors do an amazing job at executing this violence by the way.
- It's very explicit and it has tw for r***. Like seriously I'm not even that triggered by it usually but it's intense.
- It's dark: themes include: child abuse, r***, murder, prostitution, psychological and physical violence... if you are triggered easily or b y any of these themes don't watch it.
- it's not a happy movie. This is as much as I can say without spoiling but don't expect salvation for any of the characters.
- it's very weird: if you don't like indie films or stuff like that it's not the movie you're looking for.
- it's clearly not a "BL" as some might expect. don't mistake it for a love story.
- none of the characters are good people. Not even the main character, though this can be debated.


BUT truly if none of these points bother you then watch it. The psychology, the plot twists, the emotions... it's amazing seriously. The way it looks at trauma is something I've rarely seen : it's violent (if you don't notice the pattern at this point...) but is there any way to deal with trauma that isn't?

Also: I was very impressed by all of the actors, even the children. They made it feel like I was witnessing some kind of tragedy, like it can sometimes feel in nightmares: you don't control anything, and you can only watch, frozen, as the characters suffer and the story unfolds. Especially the actor for KAI, his performance portrayed KAI as some kind of chaotic free spirit, unpredictable but somehow not? I never knew what to expect from KAI but I also felt like whatever he would do was justified in some sordid insane way (and that was even before the main plot twist). don't know if I'm making any sense right now but let me tell you that KAI's character is the high point of the movie: he manages to be despicable, amazing, scary, vulnerable, somehow childlike, intriguing, sweet...

The ending is not something that I can truly say I liked because... I don't see how anyone would like this outcome but I was strangely at peace with it. It's probably necessary for a nightmare to end this kind of way.

Also the music is damn good: it fits the dreamlike vibe, in a nigthmareish kind of way of course.

Anyways you may think I'm crazy after reading this but the insanity that is this movie probably explains my current state.